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I have a collar and a leash..and other assorted fun things to play with...and im here lookin for the man to play with me. Im a little kitten, and im lookin for my daddy...is it you?
Im a rocker from W.Hollywood CA, with her own band for ten years, just chillen in Sacramento, taken time off the road, to write for a CD.
Ive been in music,and bands, all my life.In fact, I sang before I ever even talked...
My first mutterings, were me singing,"I wanna hold your hand", by the"Beatles".
Wow, now I just dated myself!!!
I have my own buisness doing custom rock design...I build ponds and waterfalls.
The best description of me would be...
"Leather and Lace".
~Leather~
I am very strong, and work very hard, I love to work on, and race cars. I can do any sport. I worked in construction before starting my own buisness. But with this economy, im thinking of doing something different now.Waterfalls and ponds have become luxury items.
I did try being a prostitute...but the refunds killed me!! And I got so tired of rolling pennies!!..LOL..JK!!
I can lift my weight plus, ran track all through school competitively. Im never afraid to get dirty. I ride motocross bikes...have a real potty mouth in private, lol, and I can work on,and fix anything...sometimes even broken hearts.
"Yes baby, im your handy-woman"..lol.
I LIVE FOR, and LOVE, heavy rock and metal music!! Started my own rock band in LA many years ago...and whenever I get the chance, I go onstage and cut myself open for ALL THE WORLD TO SEE, through my music, I ROCK VERY HARD!!VERY HARD!!
Like so hard, a cat couldn't scratch it!!!Rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
~Lace~
Even though im muscuar, im very curvy, and look very womanly.I love anything soft, and romantic, like candles, inncense, soft music, silk sheets, dresses, perfume, lingerie, flowers, good wine, and kissing, like FOR HOURS!
"Blow in my ear, and i'll follow you anywhere".lol.
I absolutely meltttt, when a man pulls a chair for me, lights my cigarette, opens my door, opens those tight jar lids,lol, or calls me petnames like, "baby", "sweethart", "princess",
(see, I even love hearing myself say them) "beautiful", "dollface"..."alright Roberta...enough already..lol".
Oh, sorry, where was I???????
Oh, o.k.....
...or is so manly, that I remember why I love being a woman..and takes charge, without being macho, controlling, or possessive.
God, I adore men...they are eternally children, never grow up, and I wouldn't change a thing about them.
I believe that if you give a woman an inch, she will take a mile...you just have to know where, and when, to give the inches,lol.
And respect is key.
If I can respect you, ill be a very, very, good girl...if not, ill probably work you like a rib.
Im a very physical person...very, very, loving, and affectionate. If you dont like to touch, or be touched, im definitely not your girl. I absolutely must hold hands, sit close, cudddle, snuggle, kiss, touch,adore,and worship my man, at all times.
When im in love, its all about him...little notes,"just because", flowers for him,(yeah, men like to get flowers too), a non expected call, or present.Whatever lets him know that im thinking of him,always.
And this relationship is never predictable,or boring, and never will be ever. I like to keep it fresh and new,for both of us,exciting, and of course really, really hot!!mmmmmmmmmmmm.
Which would explain why i've never cheated,or been cheated on, when in a relationship. When everything you could ever fantasize, dream, wish for, or desire, is right there at home, why would you go anywhere else looking for it???
I rest my case.
Im half Sicilian Italian, and half Cherokee Indian...so needless to say, im a very passionate person, who loves hard, plays hard, and cries when total strangers win money on a game show...(im so happy for them).. :)
It takes ALOT to piss me off...but then you best leave town!!lol.jk.
And if your just trying to get in my pants...."Dont !!!!", cause I already have an azzwhole in there! LOL.
And since im bareing my soul here...I also WON the personal war aganinst drugs, and quit using after many
years.
I smoked methanphetimine.
I like to talk about it, because its my greatest goal accomplished..and also,it
inspires those who read it, to maybe do the same, or to acchieve something, that may seem unacchievable...
Nothing worthwhile in life,comes easy.
But if you want it bad enough, IT WILL COME. You just have to go out there and make it happen! NEVER SAY DIE!!!
And...I give alot of the credit,to Jesus Christ.
No, im not a "holy roller",im a "rock n roller", heehee, but I love Jesus, and he is a huge source of strengh for me, and blesses me, EVERYDAY!I sing in my church choir..Yes, I love to rock for Jesus, and he loves it too. He shows me all the time, in the little blessings I get. Like getting to talk to you right now...my new friend. :)
I have no children. Theres no time in this life for them, maybe the next one. I have my dog, "Boogie", and shes my kid. Im going to be totally honest here, (because thats how I get down)...I really have no desire for any either. I love kids, Ok, but I think you feel me here.Besides "Boogie" acts so much like a person, im really not missing out on anything. Right now,shes in her teens.Grrrrrrrr!
And most importantly...as I think I have just illustrated, at the risk of sounding incredibly shallow, or selfish when I talked about kids....please, lets keep it real. Just break it down, Ok baby? Be honest. Its all I know, and what I need most. That way, its all so easy. nobody has to guess, or wonder, or trip.
If everyone was, life would be so much easier, dont you think? I do.
I do everything...im a waitress, a cocktail waitress, a singer, a songwriter, a mechanic, a licenced beautician, have done some petite modeling, been a ring girl,(ding, ding, round 3..lol) a landscaper, a motivational speaker, a rockstar, lol, a comedian, a landscaper, a clothing designer, an interior decorator, a painter, a bartender, I love to cook, I am extremely clean, and like to clean...(I know wierd).Im
the "WetSki JetSki" girl, a seamstress, an artist... and a royal pain in the ass!!.lol.
You know, so many people say to me, that they are so blown away that I can do so many things...but you know...anyone can! You just have to go for it, and try, and you would be so surprised at how many unknown skills you possess.
And never be afraid of failure!
If you tried, and gave it your all...NO MATTER WHAT...YOU DID NOT FAIL!
I can hardly wait to see what im going to be when I grow up! lol.
Maybe, its with you,
~Roberta
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I also write poetry, and would love to share some of it with you now.......
L.A.
Lets go walk through the city,
you and I.
Tonite while the evening,
is still spead across the sky.
Through trendy restuarants,
that reek of oyster shells.
Half deserted streets,
and cheap, one night motels.
Through soot filled pools,
that stand in drains.
And a yellow, green fog,
that rests on window panes.
Lets go walk through the city,
you and I.
Where people live in boxes,
and dont understand why.
And a baby, who is hungry,
slowly starts to cry.
And a city once filled with hopes and dreams,
cannot help but die.
Lets go walk through the city,
you and I.
Through the bloodstained alleys,
where a girls first trick was had.
And a junkie gave his life, for just another deal gone bad.
Through smoke filled bars,that reek of beer.
And long abandoned streets,
so filled with fear.
Lets go walk through the beautiful city, you and I.
By~Roberta Murdock~
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IM BAAAAAAAAAACK
Im back from hell
im doing well
I dont use that sh_t now
cant you tell.
Im in gods grace
look at my face
no site of the devil
not even a trace.
I feel pretty good
just like i should
I knew I could do this
I just knew that I could.
Ill never go back
to smoking that whack
I cant believe I spent so much time
being gacked.
Im back from hell
Im doing well
I dont use that sh_t now
cant you tell.
by Roberta Murdock
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TOO FAST FOR LOVE
"Fetch the pebble, from my hand",
I guess I still, dont understand.
"Patience is a vertue, dont you see",
but you didnt have, the patience, for me.
I rock all night, I rock all day,
I rock and rolled you, right away.
"Slow dowm my child, you move too fast".
My haste has put you, in my past.
When you look back, I know you'll find,
my innocent heart, was pure, and kind.
This vicious cycle, never ends,
another lover, just wants to be friends.
by Roberta Murdock
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO THE LITTLE BUG
I looked at the little bug...
he was dying...slowly.
I couldnt save him...
his injuries were far too great.
All that I could do was to spare him from a long, slow, painful death.
So I did.
I placed my foot upon him, and swiftly...
his little life was over.
And far, far...in the back of my mind...
I kind of wished, the little bug, was me.
By Roberta Murdock
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MIDEVIL LOVE
to~~Jerry Hall~~
This is not the first time weve met.
It all makes sense now...
ahhhh yessss.
How I was able to move so quickly with
you.
We were lovers,
crazy lovers,
in another time,
another place,
far,far away,
long,long ago.
You were my king,
and I your queen.
We ruled many,
and spared few.
Lust, and rivalry, was our thrown.
I was your palace.
You lived in me, and I protected you,
honored you, and loved you.
Faithfully.
How is it that you found me again?
So much time has passed.
And yet, we remain the same,
Untarnashed.
Still living our dream,
fulfilling our destiny,
to love, as no 2 ever have,
and rule the land.
Yes, we are together again.
Nothing can permanantly seperate us.
Our love,
our destiny,
our fate,
lye within each other.
And as long as time exists,
we will never be apart for long.
We will always find each other,
so as, to fulfill our destiny,
to love forever,
and rule the land.
by ~~Roberta Murdock~~
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A VISION
Your a vision of fire,
a spark of light,
you take me so much higher,
on this endless flight.
You a beautiful journey,
a passionate kiss,
when you turn to me,
and look at me just like this.
Your a precious treasure,
a dream come true,
a boundless pleasure,
is wrapped up in you.
Your a sparkling sunset,
a glowing full moon,
the love i could never get,
and not a moment too soon.
Your the reoccuring dream,
the one i cant forget,
the love so extreme,
thatleaves me breathless, and wet.
your everything ive ever wanted,
and all that i could need,
and now that I have found you,
im following your lead.
Your everything thats right,
and all I wished you'de be,
thank you for this love,
its truely set me free.
by Roberta Murdock
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GOLDEN
Golden is my day of dawning,
brilliant is the morning sky.
You are in my hours of promise,
you give me a brand new high.
Streaked with shadows
are my evenings,
so cool and gentle
are my nights.
You make so beautiful, each and every moment,
touched with hope, love, and light
I found your love in the midnight sky,
and in the moonlights glow.
I found some love for a certain man,
the one is you, I know.
Remembering the first time, I saw your face,
my god, you looked so fine.
All the happiness, you brought to me,
the moment your heart met mine.
Dont ever let this end my love,
for I know my love is true.
And let me find my forever place,
in the warm, comforting arms of you.
by Roberta Murdock
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THE END
A battlefield of words
nothing said, nothing done
Anarchy, at its finest
Total devastation, slaughter.
Darkness falls...
...Ahhhhhhhhhh...
...Forever.
"Oh yessss...
...it feels so good... so warm".
"Take me! Feel me! Rape me!".
So delicious, I lick my fingers.
I want every drop.
Vengence,
For useless life.
"There is no justice in poetry!".
"There is no poetry in death!"
Fools!
"You must fight, fight, fight!"
For what?
Who knows...
...who cares.
"Die fighting!"
Yeah, right.
Sell that to someone whos buying your line of sh _t...
...IM BROKE!
Darkness is...
..oh yes..
...so sweet... so alluring.
F_ _ K JUSTICE!
F_ _ K POETRY!
Save it for the fools.
Save it for the living
by~Roberta Murdock~
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ONE STEP FORWARD...2 STEPS BACK
I quit the dope
one step forward
Im addicted to love
2 steps back
I finally talked to my mother
one step forward
My father has passed
2 steps back
I fixed my car
one step forward
My licence is suspended
2 steps back
I made love to a man
one step forward
We havent talked since
2 steps back
I dont cry anymore
one step forward
I hold it inside
2 steps back
I see my life more clearly now
one step forward
I see what ive done
2 steps back
Ive finally forgot about HIM
one step forward
I still look at his picture
2 steps back
I love myself
one step forward
Im not sure who I am
2 steps back
I know how to live
one step forward
I wish I was dead
2 steps back
by Roberta Murdock
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DISRESPECT
Why did you hurt me, with that word?
The one you said, but never heard.
I felt so sad, filled with disgrace,
I felt like you slapped me, right in my face.
Im in such pain, from disrespect,
so much dishonor, so much reject.
To walk away, will break my heart,
to take abuse, must never start.
I stand tall,
I will not fall,
I love myself,
the most of all.
by~Roberta Murdock~
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SOUL SEARCHING
I reached deep down into your soul,
to see what foundation you were built upon...
I wanted to know what spark, lit the fire that burns in your eyes.
What symphany, plays that sweet, sweet, song,that sings in your laughter...
And kisses them, as it falls upon your ears.
And so I reached deeper.
I did not want to look too closely upon the very meaning of your being.
Or to bring a light upon the darkened corners of your inner soul.
But only a desire to know, what possessed such power, to create you... such a beauty ive never known.
The right was not mine to try opening locked doors, for which I was not given the keys.
To try running so swiftly, over a vast and unfirmiliar place, ive not yet even walked upon.
To try reaching so deeply, without grace, violating the right of your silence,
or your thoughts, hopes, and dreams.
I draw back now, realizing that the secrets of ones wonders, cannot be taken without blessings, simply by reaching deeper into ones soul...
but must be given slowly, and freely enough, to allow one to shed light upon the darkness, he himself, chooses to share.
by ~Roberta Murdock~
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DAY TO DAY
Look again, in my direction.
Youll find me still alone.
No one to share the smallest things,
I dont even have a phone.
Going through my daily motions,
existing for,it seems,no reasons.
Nothing changes, except the time,
from days, to weeks, to seasons.
Doing my best in keeping up,
with social expectations.
Day to day, my heart I hide,
with my funny characterization.
Then days end comes,and I return,
to my solitude.
My only companions,once again,
my dog, the computer, and food.
Everday I know,contains new life,
yet mine seems written in stone.
Just look again in my direction,
and youll find me, still alone.
by ~Roberta Murdock~
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO I recently refound my mother... after 15 years... and this is for her.
MOMMA
You were always, there for me
you gave me life, and helped me see
you brought me sunshine, everyday
you gave me life, and showed the way
you picked me up, when I would fall
you were there, when I would call
you taught me right, you taught me wrong
you taught me to sing, my very first song
and so now momma, I say to you
if I am great, its because of you.
by Roberta Murdock
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A SILLY POEM
YOU MUST HAVE HEARD ME CRYIN
YOU SHOWED UP RIGHT ON TIME
I BET YOU HAVE HEARD ME SIGHEN
YOU SHOWED UP RIGHT ON TIME
YOU KNEW MY HEART WAS DYING
YOU SHOWED UP RIGHT ON TIME
THOUGHT NO ONE ELSE WAS KIND
YOU SHOWED UP RIGHT ON TIME
TO MYSELF I HAD BEEN LYING
YOU SHOWED UP RIGHT ON TIME
WANTED SOMEONE TO CALL MINE
YOU SHOWED UP RIGHT ON TIME
I KNOW YOU HEARD ME WHINE
CAUSE YOU SHOWED UP RIGHT ON TIME
WHEN I WAS READY TO QUIT TRYIN
YOU SHOWED UP RIGHT ON TIME
by Roberta Murdock
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This is one of my original songs......
JUST
Just to feel you in my arms, so warm and tender
Just to have your loving body, close to mine
Gives me feelings that all my life, I will remember
Cause to me, your all that matters, in my life.
Just to feel your eyes upon me, in the moonlight,
Just to reach out for your hand, and know its there
Lets me know, our time together, will be so right
Because with the love give, I know, you'll always care.
So please,
stay with me,
Promise me, that you will never go
For I belong to you, and you to me
And forever darling, I will love you so.
Just to hear you say "I love you", as you hold me,
Just to feel, you stroke my hair, until the dawn
Just to know, that when im cold, you'll always warm me
And our time together, will go on, and on.
So please,
stay wtih me
Promise me, that you will never go
For I belong to you, and you to me
And forever darling, I will love you so,
Forever darling, I will want you so,
Forever darling, I will need you so,
Forever daling, I will love you....so.
by Roberta Murdock
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